Well this time it is easy. I know why. The other half of me is on a small island trying to create a time and place where people come face to face with things they have never seen or done or known before and that in such moments they look to God to make sense of things in their minds and hearts. When they look for Him they find Him as He promises and then - then they share it with the people around them. Mission trips are neat that way. and i know Chris loves me and I KNOW I love him, Still he is there and I am here and that is why I feel this way.
Funny tho how it occurs that way even when we are all together sometimes. Me and my husband and our children, maybe even extended family - where would any loneliness or homesickness fit? Well without Chris I feel lopsided. and sometimes when I am really in tune with Jesus, I realize more fully my incompleteness, my brokeness my neediness. and in realizing this I know also that whatever I am in the great scheme of things, it wont be finished until I am physically with Jesus. Until I can sit on the floor next to Him and just lean in for a nice long hug.
